what to do

luckily the name list changed. it saved me from lots of troubles as i don't have to think what to do just to let him happy. i am free from the two tiny eyes.
anyway, his birthday will be coming soon. i think i have already decide not to go to his party. but i m still wondering whether i should send him a simple electronic text wish. shall i? shan't i? i have no idea. i am worried if i send him the msg, he'll think that i want to get back to him. he always thinks too much. but after all, i hope that we can still be friends, anyway, we are still coursemates. i'll just wait and decide later.

loyal?

i will spending more time together with oppa for the coming months. i wonder if it is good or bad. more bad, i guess. or more good? i have no idea what to do. and it hurts.