a dream, a tea

yesterday i got a weird dream. he came to find me and ask me to be with him again. inside, i agreed but i told him that i nid some time to consider. later, my friends told me that he just broke up with his previous girlfriend, her name is yu jie. like seriously i don't know who she is, but in the dream, she is a first year student from other course. so people said that he stand of her and is still thinking of me, that's why he did so. he was busy at that time. i went to his house, and then he sent me home.

this dream is totally ridiculous. it will NEVER happened.

i feel so contra. i want to be with him and i dont want to be with him. i still got the feeling for him, and i don't want to loose him despite knowing that he might be liking some other girls, maybe a girl in his house, maybe a girl from his hometown. i feel sad inside. it is more realistic for me to not be with him. i am still thinking if he really suits me.

but i am thinking of being friend with him again. previously, i was thinking of totally ignoring him in my life. but seems like, things can be better and less awkward. i am thinking of asking him out for a tea and have a short chat after the final exam. not a date, but a tea appointment. just to talk about how well have we been these days. hope that he accept the invitation later on. i even thought of a suitable cafe for this discussion.

well, i got the feeling that we will not be in the same posting next semester, so i m so not afraid to do this because i m not going to see him that often anymore.

never ending.