Hard Time

I am having a really hard time today.

First is to wake up really early to ensure that I get the first bus. Second is to be earlier than the others. Third is to be brave to face and overcome all the obstacles. It was really tiring. You can never imagine that kind of feeling unless you experience it yourself. I hope that I can be a better person in the future in dealing with my client's emotion. Breaking the news is not an easy thing and breaking a news that you yourself are not really sure about is even tougher. Futhermore, when someone tells you that you might have a psychology disorder, it just doesn't feel good because all of that you think is that it is so not true. I experienced all this. I am no more afraid of pain nor the feeling under such a stressful environment because I've already underwent all sorts of pain. I can feel that I am stronger now.

It was nice when oppa asked me about my condition today. He really listened to all my stories and my own opinions. But actually, I prefer to be a listener than a speaker. It was always me becoming the speaker. I want and I need listen to him, his feeling, his thoughts, his plans. Maybe I should get a day, tell him that I am not going to talk much, because all that I wanted to do is to listen to him talking.

I can't wait for tomorrow to pass. Once it is over, I shall let go the long breath.