I need to hear from you

Thinking back of what oppa told me that day, now I could figure out that something must be wrong. During the call, he put all the burden and fault on himself which shouldn't happened. And I really believed what he told me.

But thinking back and thinking back again, I know that there must be something wrong. There must be some misunderstanding between us. Don't you think that it is weird that all this while everything seems to be okay, but suddenly he said that everything is not okay?
The last Friday, he came to see me and everything went smooth. Two days later which is on Sunday, I went to see him and everything was still alright. And all of the sudden, he told me all those stuffs on Monday. The changes were too drastic. If he could have had those kinds of thoughts from the beginning, he should not have come to see me on that day.

Based on my analysis, our main problem is communication. I am not blaming him. It is my fault that I told him most of the thing I felt and what happened around me, and he was the listener most of the time. Whenever I asked him if he's okay or if he's too busy, he said it was okay, but he'll never tell his problems although I do know that something must have troubling him. He is holding so many tasks at a time. How could I help him? I could not help him to do his tasks about the international event that is going on now. There must be something that he is not satisfied with me but the thing is, he never tell me nor he tells anyone. Oppa, I've told you before in the phone, I need to hear from you. I need you to be honest with me, tell me, what's happening, how you feel and what you think. Isn't that that we already promised to be frank to each other, to just ask rather than to guess and hide? It is indeed my fault of not forcing him to spill out everything. Oppa, I would like to let you know that from all this while, since the very beginning, I always care for you. I know that I could not be always there for you, by your side. I know it is silly that I actually plead my friend to be a secret guardian for you, to check if you are happy, to check if you are safe, to check if you are doing well. Perhaps I did not show it out that I care for you, but the truth is, every morning when I woke up, I think of you, I wish that you got a good night sleep the night before and you are being able to work and study to the fullest. And every night when I go to bed, I think of you again, whether you are staying up late, whether you enjoyed the day, whether you are well-prepared for the next day. And the truth is, I am still doing the same thing now.

Oppa, I do know that you are a really good person who always taking care and concerning about all the people around you. Whatever you did, you always think deeply about others feeling, but oppa, we are humans. Humans are humans, humans are not perfect. I am not perfect, you are not perfect, same goes to anyone in this world. We did mistakes, I did lots of mistakes. But oppa, do let me know that what are the mistakes. It will not be effective if you leave things to be as it is. And oppa, not that of everything that you think are all right, because what we think, is what we perceived, what you perceived is not what other people may perceive.

Again, oppa. The same words that I want to say to you when I called you that day that I want to hear from you and I need to hear from you. Do reply my message.